Hello am new and in need of training and finding my likes and dislike in this ne..

I love watching others and love seeing new things or read about  and iam just finding myself in new ways that 1 person I thought could was scared made me feel wrong in everyway made me feel liking certain things were so wrong for so for long at that time I hidden my desires and fantasy not anymore and need new outlook on life and live it the best I can with time that left

40, Straight